Monday, November 3, 2008

Where Aren't They Now: 13

At 28, Sarah doesn't look like this anymore and is sharply aware of it.

She assumes that other women feel the same unease in their skin, but Sarah lacks the courage or energy to ask anyone else about it. She's walked into too many "blame the magazines" conversations this way-- that's not it, exactly. It's a smarter pressure from within.

In the moments of roughest discomfort she scrunches her face up and focuses on the herself. She's no longer 9, or for that matter 19, but she knows enough to realize that in 10 years she'll yearn just as hopelessly for these days. She cannot enjoy the moments now, but that won't stop her from being something-like-jealous in the future.

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